Haix still a bit bothered by being transferred to Vivocity Tangs Atrium. But i dunno y i m like still feeling like tat. It is like being transferred there like got a bit of lonely feeling. Those like Sian! feeling.Still dunno y i felt this way leh! aiyo tink i think i mentally got like a bit of problem! Sort of like i wasted my 16yrs and 6days of life since birth.
At tis moment, i thought of like trying to make empower myself in a powerful state of mind. It was like sth that was taught to me in like ard sept when i met up with my pri school fren during teachers day and we went out. After that i followed Rebekah and albert to rebekah's church to attend a 'How to Ace your exam' talk by a qualified speaker( sry i forget his name psps). Erm tat was like trying to motivate urself by like associating an action with sth good( for example a thumbs up to rmb like u won a competition or sth like tat as long as it is sth u will feel gd abut urself) But i sort of like felt tat i was a failure.I wasnt able to do it! I cant find sth that i felt proud abut my self. I didnt achieve anything tat i could boast. Like PSLE score like 224(avg marks), Sec2 streaming in 2006 got into Combined science or Art stream, Sec3 got a Vice-president post in chess club not becoz i m capable but becoz they wanted a person tat can work closely with president, Even when i was a Vice-president i was like of no contribution and made chess club wat it is today! Den in competition, i was like nv close to any prize, result wise is always avg. Bad in English. Not creative, nv excel in any subject! So is there anything tat i could use to motivate myself? Ps or ot trying to be emo in tis case. But i felt i hav not done my best for my 16yrs of life. Jus tink, how many 16 yrs would i hav in my life? 5 or 6 if i m lucky. So do i still continue to like emo, to like slack? Will i achieve anything? IF, just if hor, if my life is destined to end now i would like have regrets! Many Many! Cant u think tat my life is actually much of a failure. I wan to be like of somebody useful or like somebody successful.Tat was like y the reason i put this blogskin- ROAD TO SUCCESS. Am i near it? emo dont get u anywhere!From this day onward i will work hard to achieve at least sth in my life! Jiayous!!!